Lay Me Down

Through my journey, music has been a huge part of it. There are so many songs that speak how I felt leading up to my baptism and and even songs that now help me through a day. I tend to not be able to express myself in words, but through song it can speak for me.

Here is another one of those songs!

"Lay Me Down" by Chris Tomlin

With this heart open wide

From the depths from the heights

I will bring a sacrifice

With these hands lifted high

Here my song here my cry

I will bring a sacrifice

I will bring a sacrifice

 

Come on, here we go!

 

I lay me down

I'm not my own

I belong to you alone

Lay me down

Lay me down

Oh, hand on my heart

This much is true

There's no life apart from you

Lay me down

Lay me down

Hey

 

Letting go of my pride

Giving up all my rights

Take this life and let it shine, shine, shine

Take this life and let it shine

 

I lay me down

I'm not my own

I belong to you alone

Lay me down

Lay me down, oh, oh, oh

Hand on my heart

This much is true

There's no life apart from you

Lay me down

Lay me down

Oh oh oh

Lay me down

Lay me down

It will be my joy to say

Your will

Your way

It will be my joy to say

Your will

Your way

It will be my joy to say

Your way

Your way, always

It will be my joy to say

Your will

Your way

It will be my joy to say

Your will

Your way

It will be my joy to say

Your will

Your way, always

I lay me down

I'm not my own

I belong to you alone

Lay me down

Lay me down, oh oh oh

Hand on my heart

This much is true

There's no life apart from you

Lay me down

Lay me down

I lay me down

I'm not my own

I belong to you alone

Lay me down

Lay me down, oh oh oh

Hand on my heart

This much is true

There's no life apart from you

Lay me down

Lay me down, oh oh oh

Lay me down

Lay me down

 

The Journey

The other day I wrote a bit about my recent baptism. Today, I want to share what got me to that decision. My why or how I got to my decision

As I mentioned the other day, I had joined a church about 9 years ago. At the time, it felt right. I felt like when I had prayed about it, I had received my answer. After studying the Bible with my friends and the new friends I've made, I find myself looking back and seeing that I just wasn't ready. While I believe Christ died for all our sins and is our Savior, my heart wasn't fully ready. Without a ready heart, it just means nothing.

I also found I wasn't happy. While it isn't all about the members of the church, you do have to be surrounded by others that will be there for you and you for them. I didn't have that. My job got in the way too. It really became excuse after excuse.

About 6 or so weeks ago, Travis said he wanted to find a church. A friend of mine had kept inviting me to church events and to join them on a Sunday. At first I just thought...oh she's just one of "those" Christians. You know the one, the one that actually shares their faith....over and over again. Yeah crazy thought uh? Anyhow, I texted to find out the details and we showed up.

Our first time at her church I almost told Travis I didn't want to go back. It was outside my comfort zone. You walk in the door (well really you don't even make it in the door) and everyone is grabbing you to hug you. The music was...well, I guess you could say much of it was the stereotypical for an black church. And by that I mean think of a movie that has a predominately black church and the congregation is up dancing, yelling hallelujah, etc. (Sorry I don't have a specific movie in mind and this isn't meant to be hurtful to anyone).

I thought...what have we got ourselves into.

We were then asked if we wanted to come back for Wednesday's service and every other Bible Talk on Fridays. I thought...what we have to come back more than once a week!?!?

Oh how I just didn't know at the time that this is what I would find myself wanting. The fellowship each week is amazing. Without it it's like you can't get through the week. And oh how I can't go without my hug from my brother Bruce! LOL

I went through all the Bible studies with my group. Each week I had 'homework.' One week was watching "The Passion of the Christ." Last Wednesday we started it and Thursday we finished it right before my Bible study. It was of course fresh in my head. On the way over I was listening to come of my favorite Christian songs. One of which is "White Flag" featuring Chris Tomlin.

"The battle rages on

As storms and tempest roar

We cannot win this fight

Inside our rebel hearts

We're laying down our weapons now

(Chorus)

We raise our white flag

We surrender all to You, all for You

We raise our white flag: the war is over

Love has come, Your love has won

Here on this holy ground

You made a way for peace

Laying your body down

You took our rightful place

This freedom song is marching on

(Chorus)

We raise our white flag

We surrender all to You, all for You

We raise our white flag: the war is over

Love has come, Your love has won

We lift the cross, lift it high, lift it high (x4)

We lift the cross, lift it high, lift it high (x4)

Chorus (x2)

We raise our white flag

We surrender all to You, all for You

We raise our white flag: the war is over

Love has come, Your love has won

We life the cross, lift it high, lift it high (x4)"

As I listened to this, I just broke down. I couldn't help myself. I knew right then, I was ready. I was ready to surrender. Ready to make the biggest change in my life.